First of all, I cannot believe I lost my journal. I know, again, but at least the people here at the inn are nice and I didn't have to worry about people stealing it or using it for evil... but I don't have any proof no one read it. I know it's not a 'big deal' if someone read it here, but it's still pretty embarrassing. Peter helped me find a hiding place for the journal, though. I shouldn't lose it again.

Corbie was really nice about everything. She offered to talk to me about stuff if I have questions.

But after all that... things got really good. Things changed, in fact. I hadn't planned on it, but Peter joined me to practice drawing. I couldn't really concentrate and we ended up in the lake. We ended up practically naked in the lake... actually, Peter did end up naked.

I kind of wish I could have seen him. I mean, I have seen him before, but this time was different. This time I asked if I could touch him. Even in the cold water, he felt warm to the touch and so hard, but also kind of spongy? He put his hand over mine and showed me how to stroke him... it was probably the hottest thing that's ever happened to me. I wish I could see what it looked like when I touched it. I keep thinking Peter would be embarrassed if I told him I wanted to watch as I stroked him.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to put him in my mouth... and what he would taste like.

I don't even know if Peter would let me. Would he? Kyle used to say it was every guy's dream, but Kyle and Peter are two very different people.

But the best part was being able to make him orgasm. There's this sort of... rush of happiness when you're able to make someone feel that good. It's like you can show them how much you love them in an act that's all about their pleasure. Now that I've done it once, I just want to do it all the time to him... is that weird?