I mean, yeah. I'm really happy, but I'm also embarrassed, you know? Not just about what people would think, but embarrassed that it took this long to talk about it.

And I was really embarrassing about it, too. I told him I thought of him like a dad back at the ofrenda, and I was really worried about how it was going to sound, but he sounded okay with it. I couldn't bring myself to ask him if it was okay for me to call him dad until tonight and I did it in a journal message.