I mean, yeah. I'm really happy, but I'm also embarrassed, you know? Not just about what people would think, but embarrassed that it took this long to talk about it.
And I was really embarrassing about it, too. I told him I thought of him like a dad back at the ofrenda, and I was really worried about how it was going to sound, but he sounded okay with it. I couldn't bring myself to ask him if it was okay for me to call him dad until tonight and I did it in a journal message.
I've been sort of getting the idea that using journals or your phone seems like sort of an easier thing when you need to tell someone something important. Does that happen a lot back home? Do people like... have fights and stuff through writing?
I think it's good you got it out, though. Now you both have something maybe you were hoping for for a while.
Yeah, I mean, I guess so. But isn't it better to say the important things in person? It'd be weird if the first time I said I love you to you that it was just on a piece of notebook paper.
I don't know... asking someone to call you dad is kind of scary, isn't it? Did you feel scared? And he's the adult, right? Maybe he was worried you would think he was trying to replace the other important people in your life?
When Annie showed up, were you ever worried you might say or do something that would upset her because of her future and what she knows about her mom and dad?
I don't think being an adult means you have all the answers. Sheriff
Valenti didn't know lots of things and I even saw him cry a few times when
things were bad.
I think life experience helps you navigate the world better, but it doesn't
make things less hard.
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That's great, right? I know how much Mr. Stark means to you.
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And I was really embarrassing about it, too. I told him I thought of him like a dad back at the ofrenda, and I was really worried about how it was going to sound, but he sounded okay with it. I couldn't bring myself to ask him if it was okay for me to call him dad until tonight and I did it in a journal message.
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I think it's good you got it out, though. Now you both have something maybe you were hoping for for a while.
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But don't you think you might have been telling Mr. Stark this for a while now, just not in direct words?
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I don't get why he'd worry about that. He can still be a dad to me without replacing Ben or dad.
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I don't think being an adult means you have all the answers. Sheriff Valenti didn't know lots of things and I even saw him cry a few times when things were bad.
I think life experience helps you navigate the world better, but it doesn't make things less hard.
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I really am happy, though. Even though it took awhile for us to get here.
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Does this mean I should call him father--in-law?I'm sort of excited to hear you two say that stuff in public. :)
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I think it's really sweet though, for the record.
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If they make up. I've been dropping hints and they either don't get them or they're ignoring them.
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I think they will. They can't stay stubborn forever, can they?
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Maybe we could get them in one place where they have to work together to get out?
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Or at least one of them.
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You're probably right. At least they already agree on one thing... They both care about you :)
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I should get to bed. I'm still really happy about this evening, though. Even despite my complaining.
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Me too.
I love you Peter. Have a good night, I'll see you tomorrow. <3
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