Just when you think you might be getting a handle on things, the universe has a way of reminding you that you're not in control. I thought I was prepared to meet people from Peter's life. I even met Tony Stark and that was really nerve-wracking! But nothing could prepare me to meet the future child of your boyfriend. It's not a sentence I even thought I'd ever say or write or think and yet... there it is.
And I was so stupid when I met her. I panick and made so many bad choices. I wouldn't be surprised if she hated me forever now. I almost made her cry and then I thought maybe it would be easier for everyone if I just removed myself from the equation so I broke up with Peter right then and there. I can't even begin to describe how much it hurt. It didn't even hurt as much when I pretended to sleep with Kyle in front of Max.
Peter came over and we're back together and he says we are okay, but I worry something between us has changed forever. I can't believe how weak and stupid I was. I'm lucky he still wanted to be with me. I keep thinking maybe if I had Maria here, she would have been able to somehow stop me. It's strange, but it's like, I haven't had to calm her down in so long that now I'm having these outbursts I never normally would, you know?
I'll have to find a way to make it up to Annie and somehow, if it's even possible, get her to like me. Peter seemed so attached to her and they way he looked at her - there's no doubt in my mind he's going to be a good father either. I just don't ever want him to feel like he needs to choose.
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timeasmymeasure
August 2nd
Date: 2018-08-12 02:11 am (UTC)And I was so stupid when I met her. I panick and made so many bad choices. I wouldn't be surprised if she hated me forever now. I almost made her cry and then I thought maybe it would be easier for everyone if I just removed myself from the equation so I broke up with Peter right then and there. I can't even begin to describe how much it hurt. It didn't even hurt as much when I pretended to sleep with Kyle in front of Max.
Peter came over and we're back together and he says we are okay, but I worry something between us has changed forever. I can't believe how weak and stupid I was. I'm lucky he still wanted to be with me. I keep thinking maybe if I had Maria here, she would have been able to somehow stop me. It's strange, but it's like, I haven't had to calm her down in so long that now I'm having these outbursts I never normally would, you know?
I'll have to find a way to make it up to Annie and somehow, if it's even possible, get her to like me. Peter seemed so attached to her and they way he looked at her - there's no doubt in my mind he's going to be a good father either. I just don't ever want him to feel like he needs to choose.